Weight Destroyed: No longer counting :D Focused on fitness and overall health!
I honestly have never thought of my journey in this way. I used to weigh 120kgs. For those of my imperial friends, we are talking about around 265lbs. I used to look in the mirror and think, wow I look good today! My boobs look good, I have curves! Damn! Some guy would be lucky to be with me! But honestly, I think I was in denial. All through high school I was ‘bigger’. Even in primary school, I was always taller, more ‘solid’ than all of the other kids. But I was always confident! I took what someone may have looked down on, and I made it my own! I remember as a child, kids used to try and call me ‘fat’. And I used to tell them, HA! Don’t be jealous because you can’t beat me at an arm wrestle! And you know what, they couldn’t.
It wasn’t until I graduated high school, moved to Perth and was finally feeling a little anonymous (in an undergraduate class of 2500 students). I won’t go into the nitty gritty details, but the gist of it was that I couldn’t handle it. For me, a girl from a small country town, it was too much, too soon. I moved home.
When I moved home, I resumed my job at a service station (my American friends may know it as a gas station). I got payed well! And I lived going out and partying EVERY weekend!!! I honestly looked in the mirror and thought ‘damn I look hot tonight”.
I didn’t see that my health was going down the drain. I used to play netball 6 days a week! Even when I was bigger! I loved the team atmosphere! I loved the sense of feeling like I was working toward something! But I had forgotten.
For me, the turning point was my friends birthday.
I went out, I did my hair, makeup, I thought I looked hot as fuck!
The next day, the photos where posted! Hell yes! I thought… A new profile picture maybe?
And then I clicked on the photo I was tagged in…
That’s not me ha!
It took a few seconds to sink in…
That’s not me…
I don’t look like that…
They must be mistaken..
And then I realised small features of myself that I saw in the mirror…
..things that I had always seen, but only appreciated the good things!
For me, this was the slap in the face, the POW moment that people talk about.
I finally realised, saw, understood people’s small comments, remarks etc.
I was blown away.
And I will admit, I cried.
I couldn’t believe that the hurtful things that people may have been saying about me had been true.
It was that moment that I decided to change.
I had no clue where to start. At all!
So, I did what anyone would do, and I googled it!
Little by little, I gained more knowledge!
I learnt about calories!
I learnt about protein!
I leant about fibre!
I learnt about carbohydrates!
For some people, that may seem simple. But for me, to realise I was eating on average 4500 calories a day, that was a massive shock.
I began reducing portion size.
I began focusing on more lean protein and veg!
I began focusing on me!
I honestly have to say that people say weight loss is hard. THAT IS A LIE!!
Weight loss is simple.
The hard part is that it TAKES TIME.
I myself was one of those people who was always looking for the quick answer or result!
I found that if I focused on EVERY tiny achievement made, I was better able to pull myself towards these MASSIVE goals I had set myself.
And to be honest, if I had looked myself in the mirror two years ago and said, “you know what lara, you could weight 70kgs”. I would have laughed. And here I am.
Thanks for reading xx